Out of the Darkness, Into The Light: Bay Areans Walk for Suicide Awareness & Prevention

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On Sunday, October 21, the South Bay Out of the Darkness Walk to Fight Suicide took place starting at Arena Green West in San Jose. The signature fundraising series of the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention, these walks take place in more than 400 communities across the country.

James Purvis, who was responsible for founding the South Bay walk in 2011 and refers to it as his “baby”, took to the stage before the walk began and spoke candidly about how much the event means to him. Despite currently battling plasma cell cancer, Purvis has been determined to keep the walk going. He recalled being curled up on the couch at one point recently, sick from the side effects of chemotherapy, yet motivated to get back on his feet so he could get this year’s Out of the Darkness rolling.

At the event, Purvis was pleased to see the donation tally passing the day’s goal of $95,000. At press time, $103,330.32 has been raised, from 781 participants who walked on 103 teams. Donations are still open until December 31, 2018, and being collected online here.

Amid the large crowd of walkers, many held moving and colorful signs, bearing pictures of relatives and friends lost to suicide, while vowing to honor their lives and keep their memory alive.

Milpitas Vice Mayor Marsha Grilli assembled a team for the walk, including Councilmembers Bob Nuñez and Garry Barbadillo, among others. At the day’s beginning, Grilli and her nephew Sean Flanagan participated in an emotional Honor Bead Ceremony, wherein the participants first wore and then set down beads of specific colors, in what Grilli described as “a visual and concrete way for people to recognize our reasons for supporting the cause to prevent suicide.”

Grilli, who recently championed a unanimously approved Suicide Prevention Policy for Milpitas, found her life changed forever when she lost her sister, Sharon, to suicide. Having lost a sibling, Grilli wore orange beads for the ceremony. Her nephew Sean, having lost his mother, wore gold.

Milpitas Arts Commission member Becky Strauss walked on Grilli’s team, having lost a past coworker to a sudden, unforeseen suicide, which shocked her family since the man had been someone they looked up to. Strauss shared recollections about him: “So friendly, so caring. He helped us. I remember I told him, ‘Well, you should run for president!’ That’s why I couldn’t believe it. It doesn’t add up.”

Amanda Ziemer, who works as an ambulance coordinator, walked in memory of her friend Anthony, a military servicemember who died by suicide, and in acknowledgment of her own history of depression and anxiety (starting at age 15), and history of suicide attempts. “There’s a lot of people who don’t have voices,” Ziemer pointed out, noting that in her work, she routinely orders ambulances for young children who’ve attempted suicide, oftentimes at under 10 years of age. “The youngest was 6 years old,” she said. These children are generally transported to psychiatric facilities after their attempts.

Whereas depression and anxiety are commonly cited ailments relating to suicide, a spectrum of other mental health disorders carry high suicide risks, as well. Tim Schwalbach walked mainly because he has Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD), a disorder wherein one experiences perceptual distortions relating to one’s own physical appearance, such as fearing that a certain scar looks unsightly, or that a small mole is highly visible to onlookers. Those with BDD often remain silent about their symptoms for fear of appearing vain. Likewise, it’s not unusual for people with the disorder to avoid public spaces and social interactions, for fear of being physically scrutinized. Schwalbach described the illness as “a perfect storm.” In all, 58% of people with BDD experience suicidal ideation (thoughts of suicide).

Although a great many of those who walked carried sad and traumatic memories, the spirit of the day was marked by energy and even a touch of buoyancy, as it came as a relief for the participants to have a space in which they could acknowledge and confront the reality of suicide, as opposed to suppressing or denying it.

Indeed, at the walk’s end point, rows of volunteers blew bubbles, creating a colorful greeting and a sense of homecoming.

As glimmering bubbles filled the sky, participant Juan Vargas said, “I think life is precious and we should all celebrate it, and being at this walk is a way of celebrating life.”

 

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Any reader experiencing suicidal thoughts can phone the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 24 hours a day at 1-800-273-8255. Help is always available.

 

Any reader interested in guidance on communicating about suicide (which this reporter found helpful) can go here.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Eric Shapiro
Eric Shapiro is a writer and filmmaker. He is the author of six critically acclaimed fiction books, among them the novella "It's Only Temporary" (2005), which appeared on Nightmare Magazine's list of the Top 100 Horror Books, and numerous short stories published in anthologies alongside work by H.P. Lovecraft, Ray Bradbury, Stephen King, Chuck Palahniuk, and many others. His nonfiction articles have been published on The Daily Dot, Ravishly, and The Good Men Project. His first feature film, "Rule of 3" (2010), won awards at the Fantasia International Film Festival and Shriekfest, and had its U.S. premiere at Fantastic Fest. His second feature film, "Living Things" (2014), was endorsed by PETA (People For The Ethical Treatment of Animals) and distributed by Cinema Libre Studio. In 2015, he won the 19th Annual Fade In Award for Thriller Screenplays. He was a founding partner of Ghostwriters Central, a writing and editing firm which received positive notices from The Wall Street Journal, Consumers Digest, and the TV program "Intelligence For Your Life." Eric has edited works published on The Huffington Post and Forbes, as well as two Bram Stoker Award-nominated novels.
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